100th Post & TGIF

Can't believe this is my 100th post. Can't believe I'm still waiting for my daughter, but I am even though it has been 19 months and 2 weeks. I decided to call my agency this week to get some clarity on some things. I had to call twice and I finally got a call back today. Can I just tell you that talking to an actual live person makes it so much better? I think I had had it up to my eyeballs with those "lovely" impersonal group e-mails I get every couple of weeks. When I read those e-mails, this is how I interpreted it: yadda, yadda, yadda...it's almost like Charlie Brown's teacher, "wha, wha, wha, wha!". I wish that they would understand that we need to hear their voices, not just get their e-mails to help us out during this wait. A little check in of, "Hey Jamie, it's me so and so from your agency. How are you doing? Are you hanging in there? I want to assure you that this wait will be worth it. I think it will get better." It's that sort of personalization that we need. I have learned though in this process that you cannot totally count on something that had been predictable in the past. Nothing in life is guaranteed.

I'm still being hopeful that this is our year to get our children. It's my year, the year of the rat. I know in the end the wait will pay off when we have our kiddos. I will not give up.