Thursday, February 09, 2012

Good News but bratty girl

It seems like it has been ages since I have blogged.  It is good therapy for me.  It just seems that when I have a chance to get on my laptop, I'm too stinkin tired.  I spend more time on the ipad checking e-mail or just looking at my facebook to see what my friends who I never see are up to.  We got a great report that my girl is doing well.  The cardiologist for the first time said she looked good!  He used the word.  That' a great thing.  He postponed doing another cath to close the fenestration (the pop off valve) for a few month to let her continue on her upward trend.  She's doing so well that she's taking dance classes every Saturday and is having the time of her life.  That being said, she has been acting pretty bratty the past 3 days which leads me to believe all is not well.  We are going to see the pediatrician this afternoon.  She has a cough and she is incredibly clingy but also REALLY mean.  She's throwing tantrums over small stuff.  She really is pretty laid back but not this week.  I know my girl is a drama queen but this is soooo much more.  Last night she woke up with her knee hurting.  She cried and cried.  She wanted purple medicine (motrin) and heating pad.  She couldn't go back to sleep and getting ready for school was not a pleasant experience.  I had to stop, walk out of the room, take some deep breaths and come back all calm because I know this isn't my daughter.  She was fine as soon as we got into the car for the most part (she got pissy again when I started singing along with her on one song of her Beauty & the Beast's her song!)  I don't know if going to the Valentine's day party at the hospital triggered it but I feel she was bratty on Monday too (party on Tuesday night).  So, that's what I'm dealing with.  My parents are worried that I'm overstressed, which is just part of being a single mom.  It's tough.  My therapist is totally booked and I haven't seen her since August.  I can't miss any more work. I already got docked.  Insurance costs and prescriptions costs went up this year so my paycheck is less.  I had to start all over on copays (which therapies alone are $60 a week) yep, I'm stressed.  Yep, I've sometimes overwhelmed and stressed.  But it's kind of a way of life.  It will get better.  Right now it's about keeping my head above water and one foot in front of the other. Honestly, life is good and it will get better.