Game Face

I didn't get the best news today. My agency still can't get appointments for my province. They don't know when they'll get one either. It's so frustrating because there are other agencies who are getting their families appointments with the civil affairs office and my agency can't. I'm super frustrated and upset. I know it's not their fault. I really hope it's not because my agency is in Texas. I guess what worries me most is the uncertainty. Add to that is my daugter has a heart issue that needs surgery when we get home. I don't know exactly how she's doing. The last pictures I saw of her looked like there might be a little blue around her lips. I know she needs to have this surgery done before she's 2 years old. The other thing that complicates matters is that my I-600 paperwork expires July 15th. So, I don't know whether to renew or not because that will tack on at least another 6 to 8 weeks and I don't know want more time to elapse. I want to get Grace home as soon as I can. Tomorrow is my work shower and it's so bittersweet for me because my plans are so much in the air. Yes, I know I'm getting my daughter which is good, it's just the other things that worry me a lot. I know there are people still waiting and I shouldn't be complaining and whining. I know that too. I have a lot to be greatful for. And yes, I know there is probably a reason why the timing is off for me and I know it's in God's time but you know. it still SUCKS! I have had my game face home but when I'm alone I feel pretty helpless and sad. Okay, I'm putting my game face back on.