Tuesday, May 22, 2007

I'm sad for my friend

Today I am sad. It doesn't have to do with my adoption. It has to do with one of my closest friends. She is working through something (she won't tell me, but I know she has a lot of demons from her past) and is pushing me and my other friend away from her. It always used to be the three of us together all of the time, a little less after she had her baby two years ago. She won't talk to either one of us, except she told me Friday that she is not mad at me and knows she's pushing me away. I told her I wasn't giving up on her and that I was praying for her. I knew that she had put in for a transfer. I had even asked her recently if she had heard anything and she hadn't. Today I found out that indeed, she will be going elsewhere. The tough thing is that she has not told me or our other friend. I mean, yeah, it sucks that she's going to another school, but frankly, maybe she needs this change to help her get out of her funk. But, she hasn't said anything and this makes me feel like this is the end of the road for the triad. What scares me the most about her right now is that she's in such a deep despair and she seems hopeless. I hope she is able to get out of this and I hope she's willing to let both me and my other friend back into her life. Only time will tell.