Saturday, January 02, 2010

Happy New Year

So, when you have a 2 year old who you have to put to bed at 7:30ish, watching the ball drop or going to a party is probably not an option. I have to admit that I had some longings for the carefree, footloose and fancy free days of the past. I was a bit envious of my friend D, who was able to go to a party (I'm glad she had fun...I hope she had fun for me). I was in bed by 10:30. I hardly even rolled over when I heard the fireworks. I think it really hit me that I am a mom and my daughter is a priority and I can't just do the things I did before. I miss going to the movies...I miss leisurely shopping...I miss going to dinner with my friends past 7 p.m. One of these days I'll get back to that but right now I'm doing what I need and want to do. Change is hard but it's good and it makes you grow as a person.

I can't believe we are in 2010 already. Six months with Grace have passed and it just seems to have happened so quickly. My 20 year high school reunion is in June. I'm a little freaked out by that. I am going to go and I've already asked my mom to watch Grace. I used to think about New Year's resolutions but I haven't even thought about them. I think I just want to take it day by day, be a good, patient mom to Grace. I would love to lose weight but we'll just see how it goes. For right now, I'm taking baby steps.