Wednesday, September 27, 2006


Do you believe in signs? Or do we suddenly see some things because we are more aware of them than before because it's something that we want so badly? The optimist in me believes in signs. For example, I went to Jr Greatbooks training today. I have been through this training and the last time I went, the story we read was "Harrison Bergeron." Guess what it was today? A Chinese folktale! Sign or just a coincidence? Am I trying to grasp for something that isn't there? I haven't a clue, but I want to believe that it's God's way of telling me that to be daughter in China is somewhere out there waiting for me (either waiting to be born). I realized that it will be less than a year. Less than a year is not bad when you think of it. I just can't look back and think, "Wow! I've already been waiting 4 months, not to mention that I started my paperwork back in January!" But if I put that into perspective, I have already invested 9 months into this journey. Nine months! I'm halfway there! I've already done that time, what is 9 more months going to be like? I have to look at it this way or it'll kill me. Have I considered looking at the Waiting Child list? Absolutely! Will I apply? Probably not. It'slike checking out the RQ site everyday. I have to do it. I don't believe everything, but sometimes it gives me a little something to hold onto. Did I also mention I got my baby June doll? She's too cute. I'll have to post her picture on this blog. See, that's 2 signs for today. Could China be speeding up? Maybe or maybe not.