Not Again...

Yep, it's back...that nasty strep along with a double ear infection and wheezing on her right lung.  So back on antibiotics (it's been what almost 3 months nonstop) steroids and breathing treatments.  It sucks!  I feel so helpless and horrible that she is this sick.  I am supposed to call the ENT and the pulmonologist tomorrow and see if they can also see her since she is a high risk.  I'm going to take off and we're going to have a pajama day unless we get into those doctors tomorrow (that's wishful thinking).  I'm praying it gets better and that maybe we can find a solution that can just stop it all.  The poor girl can't cut a break.  It's when she's sick that I am so thankful that we cosleep. It's easy for me to check on her or give her meds or breathing treatments. I know there are some folks who think by 2 or 3 they should be in their own bed but for our situation, it works out well.  The biggest problem we've had lately is that she wants the lamp on because she's starting to have some night fears so I try to turn it off after she falls asleep but usually around 2 am she'll awake and say "light on" and so I turn it on and put on my sleep mask and go back to sleep. 

Let's hopeand pray that this set of meds kicks everything to the curb and that she heals and feels better.

I am that kind of mom...

I never ever thought I would be that kind of mom but it turns out that I am.  An Elmo show is coming to town next month and I got tickets.  I ended up getting front row tickets which is awesome.  I think I will only get to be on the first row for kiddie events.  So, Gracie is going to get to see Elmo and Muno within a few weeks of each other.  My poor mom is coming with us. I know she was bored at the Storytime Live show so I hope the next two shows are way better.

The nasty cough is back and it is keeping me up and of course she's not getting the best sleep.  We will be seeing our fave doctor on Tuesday so maybe we can get it under control.  I think it's the allergens in the air.

My blood pressure has been on the higher side which concerns me.  ack of sleep, stress, extra weight.  I know I need to lose weight but frankly I'm too tired to do anything about it.  I put back on the weight I lost since coming home.  I know I can lose it but my mind isn't there.  I need to get it there fast.  My goal is to lose about 30 lbs before Grace's surgery this summer. 

Sleep Deprivation

Sleep is a luxury with a toddler.  I am finding that lack of it has taken its toll on my health but unfortunately when you are a single mom, it's part of the job.  Gracie and I went to a fantastic party for one of my friend's 40th birthday party.  It was great that there were other kiddos for G to play with.  She had so much fun running and playing, especially with my friend's 8th grade daughter.  I had so much fun socializing with adults on a Saturday night. I'd forgotten what that was like.   I even had a beer!  We stayed until 9ish.  The big girls didn't want Grace to play with them anymore (they were afraid the ball was going to hit her) and that basically started G in meltdown mode.  She screamed/cried all the way to the car and all the way home.  You would have thought she would have fallen asleep...nope...she kept asking for my friend's daughter saying, "My Seph-neee"  She finally fell asleep only to awaken a few hours later and it took another hour to fall back asleep.  She wants the lamp on.  Nightlights, which we have in our room aren't enough.  I wear a sleeping mask to sleep in now.  This morning we woke up almost at 8 a.m. which is later but boy did I feel horrible, like hung-over horrible.  Lucky for me that we were both able to take a 2 1/2 hour nap this afternoon.  I still felt awful!  Oh well.  I didn't get done what I needed to do this weekend but I did get to sleep a little.  I'm learning that plans are great but you have to learn to be creative and flexible in accomplishing goals.  And I'm learning that sleep when you can because you never know when you are going to get to do it again or it your sleep will be interrupted.  It's all part of being a mom.

Busy Times

Things have been so incredibly busy.  Grace is going to be in two heart calendars this year...the local mended hearts calendar and the national Saving Little Hearts.  I think it's pretty neat that she gets to be part of these two organizations.  She's also getting her Make A Wish to meet Elmo (at Sesame Place).  I think we are incredibly blessed that we get to do these neat things.  Of course, it sucks that the reason she gets to do these things are because she has some pretty serious health issues.  We still have one more surgery and we are trying hard to stay healty.  Cross your fingers that she doesn't get sick again...we finished antibiotics (for the 4th time) yesterday.  She was cranky yesterday and this morning but in a great mood today.  I don't think the allergens help.  I can't wait until she has her second surgery and gets older so that her immune system is built up and she doesn't catch everything.  I'll be glad when we aren't visiting our doctor every other week, even though we like her a great deal.